A heart of discontentment

Oh boy to I need to anchor myself!!

This past week my heart has been so full of discontentment in daily tasks. It seems that everything I try to do takes ten times the effort to get it done. For instance why has it been so hard to get my Christmas cards together? I'm not happy with any of the pictures we've taken. When I finally have the three of us together to get a picture taken my dear son scrapes his toes putting him in complete hysteria making his face super blotchy with red eyes. And once I'm on the road to discontentment it is really hard to stop my heart in every upset or inconvenience of life.

Why does distant so and so have to be so difficult ALL the time? Why can't my toddler just wash his hands and come eat like I asked him too? Why can't I ever spell that word correctly the first time? Why won't my computer cursor work the way I want it too? Why does my house seem to create messes while I'm cleaning up other ones causing an endless task of picking up messes? Why can't I just get over my ego or thriftiness and hire a house cleaner to help every once and a while? Why do I have to have another cough and cold (sniff sniff, cough, cough) Why is it that we run out of TP and tissues faster than I think we should? Why? Why? Why?

Whether I want to face it or not, I know exactly why! My heart hasn't been placed on God and His word lately. My attitude is horrible and it's because I haven't been anchoring myself in Christ. I've been anchoring myself in the upsets of life causing me to be upset and irritable almost avoiding God so I don't have to face my sinful attitudes. I'm reminded of the verse in Matthew 11:28- 30, "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in the heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden light."

Oh how I need that and crave that today (honestly, for the past week)! I need to make time and go to God and the burdens and weariness of my attitude with be put to rest. Instead it will be replaced with God's humble and gentle heart that feels light and rested.

With all this said, I'm going to anchor myself in God's word and let my burdens melt in his hands being replaced with a light and gentle heart that God desires for me.

1 Timothy 6:6, "Godliness with contentment is great gain."

Cosby on Noah

This little comedy routine about God and Noah is sadly how we treat God at times when things don't always go our way. A good reminder that my attitude should simply just follow God's Word instead of complaining or making excuses.

Ushered into heaven

So much for getting a good start on this new blog! I was hoping to be more consistent with it but life just happens and hopefully I can get into a good routine of being mindful of blogging but honestly I just forget. This weekend I have been very mindful of what God used for His glory 6 months ago.

Six months ago God ushered my unborn baby into heaven. We had expected to meet him/her yesterday before we realized that God had a different plan. Someone once shared an except from a book that said God uses women's bodies in miscarriages to usher children into heaven. I love looking at a miscarriage that way! In the way that God was able to use my body as a tool to have His will be done in ushering the soul I never got to meet into heaven. That is what my greatest purpose in life is- To be a tool for God's purposes. I look forward to meeting my unmet child in heaven one day and I'm so thankful that he/she is with God at this very moment.

Praying Hands

A discipline that my husband and I have established in our home is praying with our son throughout the day. This started early on before he knew what was going on and over time he too has picked up this daily discipline which has been such a blessing for us to see. Sometimes in my haste, I'll forget to pray and out pops from his sweet little voice, "Mama, praying hands." It humbles me and reminds me that I forgot to pray and I'll stop what I'm doing and will pray with him. This is one of those treasures that touches my heart each time I hear it. I've even been known to purposely forget just to hear his sweet little voice say, "Mama, praying hands." Now we're working with him on praying for us by repeating what we say. It's such a blessing to hear him pray even as he stumbles and skips over words.

Launching

This blog is about to set sail. It has been an idea in my head for over a year now and I finally mustered up the courage to start it. You see, once I start this blog I am now somewhat kept accountable to it, to update it and to keep it going. I once had a blog about my family but life got busy and after a while I felt like plastering pictures and comments about my life was becoming mundane and there was so much more to share on a deeper spiritual level. Well, this website will be a little bit about my family but hopefully more about the journey God has me on. I will do my best to update it but I reserve the right to write at my own pace which at times can be months in between. I enjoy writing and since having my firstborn (about two and a half years ago) my mind seems like it has been in a fog. So hopefully this blog will help me unravel my thoughts that seem to be bundled up inside me.

Ahoy Mates! Let's set sail!